Daniel Shai

---

So I'm not very interested in thought and the stories it tells, hence telling a story "About Me" feels like the effort of making something up. I admit, I'm as lazy as they come. I love the freedom that we are too much to leave it for a thought. Perhaps that tells you about me something that in the official story you won't hear. 

The story of how I woke up is, as I say in my videos, just. a story of so much exhaustion and suffering (inner conflict), that I eventually found the courage to leave not only all of society behind, but the entire universe, and come back Home to the Self. In other words, the ideas taught to me by society, and the cherishing of the world as a place I'd find happiness in - were dropped. The process felt blasphemous, and. asI approached the light the fear seemed only to increase and become more raw. It's like a force within me felt awakening was the opposite direction of what is natural and desired. But holding on to duality as my reality is something I could no longer bear.

I'd come into the space of awakening many times in my life, but never dared to stay. Hence the flip-flopping went on for many years. The journey requires tremendous courage and intelligence, to listen to your intuition - to the Self calling you Home to Yourself - over the noise of fear, doubt, guilt and the sense you are blaspheming, which all come from the ego. The ego really is threatened by us leaving the illusion behind. It truly is a death, as far as death can at all exist.

During the last stage of flip flopping I would spend a lot of time being quiet, doing nothing, being in nature a lot. This is not a perscription, just a description of how it went here. I wasn't reading much or listening to teachings much, I was able to hear truth within and dared to follow it - despite tremendous uncertainty and difficult life circumstances. Sometimes a word of a sage would find me, and it would be heaven-sent, carrying me through to a deeper let go - until life became living in a let go. Meaning, witnessing.

I'm the exact same as you. I celebrate with you the magnificence that we are.